4 Orphans...Unsupervised!

This is what I found my brothers ages 31, almost 26, and 21 doing this afternoon...playing Rock Band. Somehow they even roped me into playing a few songs with them, although eventually I was kicked out of the band because I am so bad. They said that I was "bringing down the whole band," or something like that. I guess my video game skills peaked in 1995 when I conquered Super Mario 3. I didn't really care that I got kicked out though because I had plenty of blogging to catch up on (as I'm sure you can all see).

We decided to have a party...just the four of us tonight (my sister-in-law is out of town). We played rock band, ate pizza (don't worry mom, I made the boys a salad too), and just messed around. I think we were all just trying to keep our minds off of the fact that our parents really are gone for three years. I'll be honest. When my parents first got their call it seemed pretty unreal but was also kind of exciting. Then we just started focusing on all the things that had to be done before they left and so we didn't have time to think about the reality of it. But now it is real and it is really hard. But thanks to the mind numbing activities of blogging and playing Rock Band I have been able to keep my breaking into tears down to only two episodes today. Yay for me!

I mean, what is my problem? I'm going to see my parents in a month and a half when I stop by to see them on my way home from Paraguay. I guess it is just knowing that they are 25 hours and a 1800 dollar plane ticket away, that I don't really have a home now (although Lee and Kim are super nice and still make me feel welcome at my parent's house... it just isn't the same), that I don't know what I'm doing with my life, that I have no desire to return to Salt Lake in the Fall even though my Grad program and work are there, that I'm going to Paraguay in a week and I don't know anyone there or even for sure what I'll be doing while I am there and I'm totally not ready for that trip, and that I lost 1200 dollars on the stock market today (okay, it isn't lost until I sell, but still...)! Somehow in spite of all of this I feel great and at peace with my life and am fully functional other than the sporadic crying episodes. So yay for Rock Band, Blogging, and three excellent brothers!